So sometimes you end up falling for the person who knows the most about you, the person you’ve known the longest, the person who’s house you run to when you need someone to talk to, the person you kissed during truth or dare in your backyard at midnight way back when. I guess what I’m getting at is that sometimes you fall in love with the one person you never want to loose; your best friend.
When you see him/her you feel this sudden amount of happiness and comfort and you can’t help but want to spend all of your time with them. Then you stop and tell yourself that they don’t feel the same way… or maybe they do… You don’t know for sure. You’re either too much of a pussy to ask (guilty) or you don’t wanna mess up your friendship.
However, you can’t get them out of your head. When you see them you just want them to kiss you on the neck, lay you down on a bed, fuck you amazingly, and then fall asleep spooning with their arms wrapped around you. No, just me? oh… well now this is awkward…
Okay well back to what I was saying, You love them. You want them. But you can’t have them. If you haven’t realized, I am currently in this terribly confusing situation. (if not, well then you need to read better.) I have no idea what to do. All I know is how I feel about him, and I love him. At first I didn’t think it was love but then people started pointing how he always came up in conversations and I found myself thinking about him before I fell asleep. I know all of these super weird things about him and I’ve seen him do all this strange shit but I still can’t wait to see him. I still think everything he does is endearing and I never want him to leave. I even found myself thinking about the scar above his eyebrow and the tiny freckle he has on his palm.
Blah, blah, blah. Sappy love shit. However, I know that we will never work out and that he is a dumb piece of shit anyway. That is all. <3